Words elude me.
Perhaps that's why I chase their magic;
In their wake I feel I can escape the chisseled meat of clumsy matter
That dragged me through the gutter.
It was the failings of a frail frame that kept me bound and lashed to trauma and unrequited Heartbreak; yes:
I thought that suffering was England.
Every lie and sharp word cut my sight and minded me of sorrow.
Now what am I to do with all these words?
I saw death in every poppy and mine was bought for £1.50.
My mind's awash with fables and with histories and here old voices screamed for notice as they Shook their fists in anger; RED!
Like swaying poppies.
They rattled out their cartoon spectre tonsils and who am I to question that?Like swaying poppies.
Yet in this space of words I can now breathe...
And with these sacrad incantations I transcend the plastic gristle and the grime that defines my Fading form and I become a shining arabesque...
I am not just earth and dust
Within me are entrenched the roots that bind the thoughts and words to rock and leaf and tree;
We are of this earth and blood red veins that course through disillusioned souls are sanctified By words and Poppies passed.
We carry this! We the Men of England;We are of this earth and blood red veins that course through disillusioned souls are sanctified By words and Poppies passed.
And in our minds it is the spirit of nostalgia that pervades and now I think
"What is this thing we call our England?"
What fiction supersedes our missing tribe?
By what means does this define us?
Do these words in part confine us?
I for one shall take these words and with the air that shaped my lungs
I will exhale my love with pride.
Regardless of the broken lines I walk with dignity and in my heart - Despite the nihilistic fashion -I aspire to something better.
I take with me my battered English past - my blood red crumpled poppy - and I know that Where I go I have no fear:
No fear.
And in my heart I vow to lift my art with words that share a joy for life;
I maybe just a native to the pebbled grey but with no shame I reached beyond for better.
I am all that I've inherited.
All the flowers that my plastic poppy supersedes.
I am the poppy and the lily and the rose without choice;
All that I can do is salvage some enlightened seed from deep within this rancid pollen with the hope of breeding beauty;
Behind the Poppies we are all nothing more than lustful glints in our fallible fathers eyes.
This is all anyone ever truly inherits.
What am I?
I am country and council estates - behind gates - lived in fear and yes there's good reason:
Good reason indeed for the Men who will sell you and lie for your loyalty.
For your crumpled Poppy
And for this reason,
For this very reason my friends
I redefine MY England.
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